Inner ramblings...

So here I am sitting at work, bored and I still have an hour and a half to go. I have been thinking that I should update this thing with my own perspective since Keith does most of the writing.

From the day people started finding out I was pregnant they would say "It is going to change your life" and my immediate thought is no kidding. I am going to squeeze a kid out and then me responsible for her. Sounds like a life alterling experience to me and believe me it has proven to be that an much more.

From the day I gave birth to her my emotions have been over whelming. Most of you know we were readmitted to the hospital about 24 hours after being discharged due to jaundice. I never dreamed that his would affect me the way it did. To this day (3 months later) I still get teary eyed thinking about having to go back to the hospital. Not because it was a bad experience it was a good as it could be but it was at that time I realized how much I loved her and I didn't want anything to hurt her. I knew she would be fine and we would be going home shortly but I was so upset at the idea that I couldn't hold and cuddle her. It was all I wanted to do and I couldn't. I didn't leave her side that whole time, no one could convince me too. I never realized I could love someone so much, someone I hardly new.

These emtions were reaffirmed when it was time for me to go back to work. I was a mess that day. I didn't want to go, I didn't want to leave her even though she was home with Grammie Sue, Gramps, and Daddy. I wanted to stay home with her, but I couldn't and now that I have been back to work for about 6 weeks I am finding that I am enjoying getting out of the house and having some adult conversation that doesn't revolve around when the last diaper change was or when the next feeding is. It has made me a better Mommy to get out of the house, but I can't wait to be off for the summer and get to spend all of my time with her. I am already dreaming about the great fun we will have this summer.

Lizzie Sue is 3 months old tomorrow. I can't believe it, she is growing and changing every day. I won't give many details because I know Keith is planning a post for tomorrow.

All in all, life is good...